Open Letter

Dear to You,

          

  How are you? It’s been awhile since the last time you text me explaining the reason you sent me that TEXT. I know I ignored your text. I didn’t mean to ignore and I was thinking of using the excuse “I was busy” but I knew it is not a valid reason.

            I understand the reason behind your text. I was confused at first but then I realized you were right. I don’t know if you are going to read this. I try to text you but I have no courage.

        

    I believe you finish your STPM already… Am I right? I don’t know where you are now. I just hope you are okay. I know I am no one in your life not even your friend. I really want to wish you Happy Birthday last November but I am out of courage. I don’t understand myself sometimes. I tried to text a few weeks ago but I ended up deleted every words that I’d already type, but I accidently press the button call though.

        

    In case you are wondering about me. I am okay. Maybe not. There’s too much that I don’t understand what is going on with my life that it took my times to figure it out. Including your whereabouts and wellbeing. I still hope to be your friend after all this time. 9 years ago where I first met you and I always want to be your friend, can you believe it’s been 9 years already? It’s true that I don’t know what you had been through, nobody knew mine too. I am glad that my wish to be your friend came true. You said my eyes were telling you something. That night when you texted me… You don’t know how much happy I am that I threw my phone!

            Do you remember that I never dare to look at your face? Nor talking with you, although you were sitting behind me? Everytime I remember that I laugh alone. I don’t know if you already heard these songs Superman by Rachel Platten, Sound of Silence, True Colors… Haha why I even mention this. I think we have the weird friendship. Do we even a friend?

         

   There’s a lot of things I want to you know but I don’t know how… I believe you don’t even care. I was wondering, why every time I feel down really down and feeling like no there for me… You always show up at the right moment? To cheer me up. Have you listen to Cheer Up by Twice? That’s my niece favorite and she’s just turned 7 monthsJ.

         

   Last but not least, I am not going to say I miss you because I don’t. If you read this by any chance, please don’t ask me why I wrote you this letter. I am not going to answer because it’s awkward. All I want to know is “How are you?”

Yours no one.

She's Just a Girl

She’s just a girl,

Too young to understand what world really is?

She was alone, nobody there for her.

She cried every night.

She prayed to God wishing for best.

But, she just a girl she don’t understand.

She said I don’t want to be here…

But her mommy said “be a good girl and stay”

She blamed God.

She woke up everyday wishing times goes by,

Everyday she told herself to be strong.

She watched her mommy at her worst.

She was afraid.

She said I don’t want to be here.

But her sister said “don’t you dare to leave”

She blamed God.

She spent her two years not talking to anyone at her new school.

She got no friend at her new school.

She missed her Bestfriends, but they were too far to reach.

She thought suicide.

But she knew it is sin.

She did not know she was depressed.

Things got weighed.

She just wanted to run away and breathe,

But her sister misunderstood.

Because she did not know how to tell and says,

She’s just a girl.

She’s not insane.

She’s just need help.

She’s not armor, she’s just a girl.

Visit UMS EcoCampus

I believe that many of us when heard the word of University the first thing that come across to our mind is “a place to study/ to get knowledge”, but did you know that University of Malaysia Sabah (UMS) is actually a tourist site.

Basically, UMS is offering an intangible actions service as an institute in which UMS offering education, but because of its environment UMS now can be visited by tourist who love nature.

 Here is a list of places that you can actually visit in UMS:

ODEC - Outdoor Development Centre (Open 8.00 am to 6.00 pm)

UMS jetty. Open 6.00 PM to 6.00 AM for everyone that love to go fishing, you can purchase the ticket from Aquarium and Marine Museum counter.

ODEC Beach

Aquarium and Marine Museum

For more information http://www.ums.edu.my/ipmbv2/index.php/ms/news/85-marine-aquarium-museum

UMS PEAK

In UMS you also can go hiking in UMS Peak. UMS Peak approximately 1.2 KM from the starting point to the peak and 190m from the sea level. 

The scenery that you can watch from UMS Peak

Yes, you can see the Yayasan Sabah.

PASAR TANI

Every Thursday there will be a Pasar Tani in evening located next to Dewan Canselor of UMS.

Other than these four place I mentioned above, there are still a lot of places that you can actually visit in UMS. If you want to come to UMS you can go to  the EcoCampus Visitor Information Centre (EVIC) located at the Science and Natural Resources Faculty for more information.

If you are tired from your long walks in UMS, Marina Cafe is there for you. Located next to the Aquarium and Marine Museum. From the Marina Cafe you can see the view of ocean. 

Here is the video that you can watch.

#throwbackFriday

Okay... Last Friday my class throw a party which is simple and fun. Sadly it was a last day we're able to meet Aveline, she will move to UPSI next week... I lose another friend that I can tease and fooling around. She's a very smart girl compare me... She's a great friend. I just know her for few months but I really feel lose... Well, I still can meet her someday :) Farewell Aveline...

girl of the day :p win two in row...

Wedding Dream

I believe every girl wish to end up married with their beloved one. It's a lie if I says "I never dreamed about my wedding". Yes, me sometimes picturing in my head how my wedding day look alike. I even google a wedding picture. I can see in my head I walk on aisle and my future husband are standing next to pastor waiting me to reunite as one...

I prefer outdoor aisle :)

a wedding dress like this maybe :)

or indoor aisle...

so that's all.... me talking about my wedding dream... #picture credit to Google.